We are going through the same thing but my husband is at an earlier stage. We often say that as long as we have today and we have each other, we are okay. It is a heartbreaking and devastating disease and so difficult to cope with sometimes. But we’ve been together more than fifty years and if I could magically go back 50 years and know that he would end up with dementia, I would marry him anyway. He is and always will be the love of my life.
I can relate to what you are feeling because I’m going through the exact same thing with my wife of 51 years. She can do nothing at all anymore , she doesn’t talk or dress herself or anything else. I can’t bring myself to think about a home away from me. I felt your pain as you talked about your lives together as it was quite similar to our lives and I can’t imagine life without her in it. I ask each day for the Lord to just give me one day at a time because that’s all I can handle and I can’t even do that without him to guide my every step. I sometimes set quietly crying as I watch her sleep knowing that that’s when she is the most peaceful and I know that that is really the best for her but it leaves a huge hole in my heart ️ where she once lived. God bless you and all that are living with this awful condition.